It is truly amazing! Here I stand today, at 27 years old. Just 9 years removed from my senior year of high school. I cannot believe I have gotten from where I was, to where I am. It is not possible for this to happen to me! Well, that is, apart from Jesus Christ. I used to make deals with God in high school. I would tell God that if he would bring the perfect girl into my life that I was going to marry, then I would start to go to church. See, I wasn’t a Christian who went to church. I was lazy. I always had excuses, and since my parents did not go, I didn’t go. My dad always tried to get me to go to Vacation Bible School, but why should I go to church if my parents weren’t? It is not a jab at my dad. I love my Dad and the person in my life that led me to relationship with Jesus. But in high school, the relationship was mostly a distance kind. I prayed and talked to God, but I thought those people that devoted their life to their church family on Sunday mornings, Sunday nights, and then the real Jesus freaks that went Wednesday nights were crazy! I hadn’t really allowed God to change me from the inside out. Now, I stand in awe of the presence of God, talking to high school students and trying to tell them just how awesome of an experience this can be for them if they would only give 100% of their hearts and efforts to God and go “all in”. See, where I was, and where I came from to where I am today is only by the grace of God. I used to only listen to all kinds of music. I thought Christian music was only what hard core people did, and that definitely wasn’t for me. I used to think I would never stand in front of a group and be able to talk about God. God wasn’t going to use me for that. I was not good enough. Up to a certain point, I was right. I was not, and am not good enough on my own. It is only through the blood and sacrifice of Jesus that I can say and do all things. Now I look back and just laugh, it was because I told God I couldn’t do that for Him that I think once I finally submitted and went “all in” that he could just laugh at me and say sarcastically, “Yea, I don’t use people like you!” I want to be real and open. I am so far from perfect, but there is one thing someone cannot say me, and that is that I do not wake up in the morning and try to live for God as best as I can. I fall all the time, but I fall because I am running, not because I am standing still. I have so many people in my life that I can look to that support me and help me be the most I can for Christ. None of us can do this on our own. We definitely need Jesus! But it also helps to have certain people around, young, and old, to help influence us and encourage us. I have never seen my prayer life so strong that when I pray about something, I have faith that God will answer in some way. I feel like when I worship, I am singing unto God with all that I have. I never feel better than when I am listening to the holy spirit and singing out God’s praise! I cannot thank God enough for the people in my life. My family, my friends, and yes that includes some of my best friends that are 15/16 years old in the youth group, and most of all for the gift of His son Jesus Christ!
I just got back from running listening to one of the guys from our church sing Lord of All, and I felt like the whole time I was singing at the top of my lungs for God. What an awesome truth and an awesome praise song! I love you Jesus! Thank you! I'm 27 years old, and I am finally all in!